I’m actually a very dark person. I always have been. The books
and movies that I’m attracted to typically contain some (or all)
of these essential elements: malice, betrayal, deception, despair, and
of course– forbidden lust. To me, any experience worth having
has some element of risk, and any story worth telling
contains some hint of darkness. This philosophy has gotten me into some
trouble over the years, but that’s another story.
It’s really ironic (and a strange twist of fate) that I’ve
spent the last year and a half being completely and utterly consumed
by the creation of a film about kids, of all things. My good friend
and producing partner Amy Sewell called me with her idea for this movie,
and somehow I became hooked. Never in a million years could I have imagined
such an improbable thing happening. Yet, this tale of New York City
kids became my reason for getting up in the morning. In fact, before
actually getting up I would lay in bed
obsessing over finding the perfect way to tell this little gem of a
story.
There is hardly anything that stops me dead in my tracks more than
expressions like “wholesome” or “family fun.”
This has become a joke between Amy and me. She has, on more than one
occasion, gleefully tapped me under the table in meetings when someone
is describing our film in “feel good” terms because she
knows how this kind of talk
fills me with anxiety.
Amy gave me a book for my birthday by Edward Gorey called The Gashlycrumb
Tinies. For those who don’t know, Edward Gorey (1925-2000)
was an author and illustrator of many unique books that often have the
appearance of children’s stories, but are usually much more ominous,
even sinister. The Gashlycrumb Tinies uses the alphabet to
tell dark little tales. I feel that Edward Gorey and I are kindred spirits.
So in the spirit of Mr. Gorey, I have written my own Tinies
about the trials and tribulations of the past and coming year.
A
is for Angst
felt in making this movie
B
is for Boyfriend
who made it all groovy
C
is for Chanel,
which I hope to afford
D
is for Dreaming
of winning award
E
is for Easy,
which this film was not
F
is for Friends,
who laugh with me a lot
G
is for Gay men
who help me get through it
H
is for Having
the strength just to do it
I
is for Ideas
about how to proceed
J
is for Jobs,
which I hope I won’t need
K
is for Kids,
who danced into my heart
L
is for Longing
to sound like I’m smart
M
is for Mini,
which I’d like to drive
N
is for Nervous—
how will I survive?
O
is for Omens
of what is in store
P
is for Packing
and airports galore
Q
is for Questions
of what to do next
R
is for Racing
back home to have sex
S
is for having
Spectacular times
T
is for Tired
of making these rhymes
U
is for working hard
Under the gun
V
is for Visions
of travel and fun
W
is for Wisdom
to know when to stop
X,Y and Z
is for loving to shop
Amy has promised that our next project together could be dark, but
then again, maybe not.