by writer/director/star Evan Glodell
It seems that there are defining moments in everyone’s life, and depending on what kind of person you are, those moments vary greatly.
I've had a few that I can clearly remember. My first serious injury from doing something stupid when I was in sixth grade taught me that I was not indestructible. Being put in jail for a month when I was eighteen showed me that the system was more powerful than I was. It also taught me to be responsible for my actions.
The biggest one for me though was a relationship I went through in my early twenties. It was the first time I really fell for a girl where all of a sudden, the rules went out the window. From spending time with this girl, I was given a break from reality and my number one priority in life was to stay in the relationship. This caused quite a bit of trouble when the relationship started to crumble and I was unwilling and unable to let it end and walk away. It also allowed me the pleasure of experiencing a very long and unbearably painful breakup.
In the wake of this, I realized that my view of the world had drastically changed; everything I thought my life would be up until that point was a joke. It wasn't going to be easy and always "just work out." I also realized that I had not been warned about this. Of all the movies I had seen about relationships, why was it that I had no idea what it was going to be like to have my heart broken?
As a young filmmaker, it suddenly dawned on me that I would be making a film about this. The idea came to me so powerfully and with such importance, I already knew it was going to be my first feature length project before I even started writing the script. The eight-year journey/battle to get the film made is another story altogether.
Bellflower is my attempt to create a film that honestly portrays my experience of love, friendship, heartbreak, and ultimately, forgiveness. Which in my opinion is a lot more interesting than what you see on the surface. It requires some things more beautiful and intense and some more powerful and dark than we have in reality to truly express—I believe that's why we have film in the first place.